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Monday, 01 June 2009

Bye, Xanga.

I've joined the evil forces. But I love the other Xangas on here that I'll check back once in a while... But I'm moving to another location...

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Friday, 29 May 2009

the quest for moisture

Right now, the humidity in Castro Valley is 89%. In Davis it is 63%! For those with sensitive and already dry skin (my roomie and me, lol), the dry winter months cause itchiness, redness, and flaky skin. My dry skin has never been a huge problem until this year. I think it only poured a few good days this year... I remember a lot more rubber boots last year... But this year I developed an itchy patch on my left wrist that wouldn't stop itching... and my legs have been really itchy and red... as to mention other dry areas that have never been dry before... What makes it even worse is that Davis typically has dry and hot summers... >_<

So I started a quest to find the right lotion for my skin. I looked at many mainstream brands and since Vaseline's been around the most, and is relatively cheap, I decided to go try out their products... I got Vaseline's Intensive Rescue body lotion today and applied it after a shower... So far the rash on my left wrist isn't red and cracking anymore, but we'll have to wait until tomorrow to see if these effects last. Even though it says it's fragrance-free, there's definitely a smell to this lotion which I like a lot, but hmm, if they're lying about fragrances... are they lying about other things too!?

I do feel weird putting petroleum on my body every day, I wonder if the chemicals will cause any harm... Eek. I'm looking into natural shea/cocoa butter as a replacement, or natural oils but I have no idea what to look for. And is anything really chemical-free... that's relatively cheap? haha... sigh, whatever!!! People put petroleum on their lips as lip balm, what's the harm in thisss...

>_>

Saturday, 16 May 2009

for the first time today

i ran around campus and its grassy areas barefoot. it helped that it was dark so i could pretend the ground was clean. but it was definitely a lot better running barefoot than with those beat-up old sandals! and even though i ran into mud, i felt like a little kid again.

but man, my ankles are getting sore. >_< i might go to the walking adventure tonight but probably not... i got so much work to do... -_-

Tuesday, 12 May 2009

so nice, isn't it nice...

you know you have a good relationship going on when, at the end of a long and stressful day, coming home to your partner (in my case talking with him on the phone) is the thing you look forward to most because you can just relax and bask in their love. are we really like an old married couple already?!!!

honestly, sometimes i feel like we are and it's a bit scary but also nice. :)

BUT

i don't want to jinx ourselves

soooooooooooooooo

but i just miss him, grr. grrrrrr!

Friday, 01 May 2009

Hell

At the retreat we did a faith walk (I think that's what it was called) where we had to close our eyes and let someone else guide you to another location. We walked from the dark parking lot to inside the building and when I sensed the light and heard people around me laughing, joking around, I had a feeling that this is what Heaven was like. Having the light there, knowing you're okay, love around you.

Then they told us a story (with our eyes still closed) about this man who was being guided through Heaven and Hell, and in Hell there were skeletons trying to feed themselves with their arms always extended, while people in Heaven were laughing and enjoying themselves because they were feeding each other. Interesting story but when I heard the description, I pictured my family in Hell because that's where they'll end up if they don't convert and if everything is true. And I felt angry that I was being divided from my family and some of my close friends just because they can't believe, just because they're too busy to give it consideration. Can you really blame them? How could I leave my family behind in Hell like that?

I have a hard time with some core beliefs of Christianity, like Hell and the resurrection. I'm not sure if I'll ever reconcile these feelings but I still believe in God, and I love Jesus and his teachings. I just feel outcasted, lost, and frustrated that I can't believe. I want to but I can't pay the price...

"Why is it so hard for you to believe?"
"Why do you find it so easy?"

Story of our lives.